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Because of You Now This Is Me

I'm trying to find a way to escape

all the pain that I carry in my veins.

It's an infection cleverly named love, and it's yours.

So I selfishly carve out a hole my size

and crawl deep inside her heart.

A safe place for me to lie and I've been lying from the start.

It's so poisonous the hope that she feels and it's my fault!


If it wasn't for you, this wouldn't be me.

If It wasn't for the scar across my chest

I wouldn't be afraid to take a breath

If it wasn't for that fear you gave me

My touch wouldn't be condemning her to death

I'm hopeless and a wreck

Because of you now this is me


I'm trying to find a way to erase all that you've left

still the memories hang on her lips

I try so hard to forget your kiss

I hate the taste, and it's yours.

Now I wish I could say I'd stay

but the moonlight played its tricks and

I'm just looking for a place to rest my weary eyes without you there.


If it wasn't for you, this wouldn't be me.

If It wasn't for the scar across my chest

I wouldn't be afraid to take a breath

If it wasn't for that fear you gave me

My touch wouldn't be condemning her to death

I'm hopeless and a wreck

Because of you now this is me


Because of you

I've destroyed a beautiful soul

Because of me

I'm no better, and I know

We share the same disease


If it wasn't for you, this wouldn't be me.

If It wasn't for the scar across my chest

I wouldn't be afraid to take a breath

If it wasn't for that fear you gave me

My touch wouldn't be condemning her to death

I'm hopeless and a wreck

Because of you now this is me


©David L. Lucy II


Everyone deals with heartbreak in their own way. I personally lost myself. I felt like I had to share my pain. There are a lot things I did that I am not proud of. I hurt a lot of women who did not deserve it. I was on a path of self destruction and wanted to take anyone I could with me. I wrote this after realizing just how lost I had become and even when i knew what I was doing was wrong, I wanted to point the blame to the one that hurt me. After I finally owned up to what I had done all I wanted to do was take it all back, to say I'm sorry to every woman I hurt, to mend their hearts. In the end, I couldn't do anything. Now I pray for the strength to never follow that path again.

--David

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