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A Battle With Myself

I just need to be honest with myself for more than a moment.

Can't take any more of this confusion and torment.

This self-infliction has become an addiction.

Why do I lie to myself? Am I still fooling myself?

Alone in my head, the silence is unnerving.

Settling scores with my doubt and hiding shame in the corner.

I'm continually trying to clean up these broken bits of my past.

Why can't I remember myself? Why can't I seem to find a purpose?


So stuck on who I used to be!

But I know You only care about the man that I can be.

You laid down your life to set me free.

So I'll fight through these webs I weave to follow you.

Lord, I need your strength! Please lend me your strength!


I just need to let this poison out of my veins.

This false hope and false love that mankind has made

The American Dream is my nightmare

Why do I follow them? Am I trying to justify my own sin?

Fear takes hold of my wrists.

I'll never be good enough. I'll never be good enough!!

This circle of denial. How could I ever deserve your grace?

Why can't I forgive myself? Why can't I just let you in?


So stuck on what I should have done!

I know you've had a plan for me all along.

You laid down your life to set me free.

So I'll fight through these webs I weave to follow you.

Lord, I need your strength! Please lend me your strength!


Forget picking up the pieces.

I need to start over, clean.

Forgive me for my weakness.

Through You, I'll start over.


You laid down your life to set me free.

So I'll fight through these webs I weave to follow you.

Lord, I need your strength! Please lend me your strength!


©David L. Lucy II

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